Wednesday's gone

Today was okay. I need to take the trash to the road before I go to bed. I wrote a new rap song. This should be interesting. Trying to find a beat for it is like trying to find buried treasure...or like trying to watch Nicolas Cage find treasure. I miss my bros.

Discussions

Just finished all of my Discussion Topics in Volleyball officiating. I am so eager to learn Volleyball. For all of you who may be reading, if you haven't figured it out by now I am a MALE. I soley believe that Volleyball is a women's sport. Might as well be called Kitchenball.

Uggh.

Today was a drag. I should be in Indiana right now with the boys. I'm so tired of being here. I'm SO tired of being here. Thinking about joining the Air National Guard. Tuition Assistance would be really helpful right now. So I can finally just leave this place. My grandmother is in the hospital sick. Not sure what's going on with that situation. Recorded some of "Over You" tonight. Finally figured out how to work that god forsaken drum machine within the system. I'm juggling between, Facebook, this, my phone, and I'm about to pull up Faulkner's website to get some of this school done. I have taken just about every class this college has to offer. I figured that out when the last two classes were World-Lit and VOLLEYBALL OFFICIATING. Lordy.

More.

Why do you do this to me?
You push and pull me away.
You take and give.
You plant the seed, and then kill it.
Your moods change like the winds blow.
You stop and then you go.
You never take time with things,
rushing and rushing around.
Why must it end so soon?
Darling, the flower has hardly bloomed.
Why let the fear set in from something so far away?
Why let small things turn you away?
The colors of the emotions.
The metallic armor that shields me.
The distance.
The touch.
The bond.
The need.
I need you.

More poetry.

If love was a page.
My page would be unwritten.
For I am young and naive.
And often bitten.
By the ones I let in too close.
Who think my heart to be a joke.
And cast me away.
Into a bin full of waste.
Am I waste?
Am I a waste of time?
I don't even care if any of my words rhyme.
I have no structure.
I have no chain.
I have no master.
I am no slave.
I enjoy walking where no other has been before.
I see beauty behind closed doors.
I want to be someone remembered.
Loved and cared for.
But all hope just seems lost now.
Should I care anymore?

Shorter, sweeter.

Procrastination is a pain,
I cannot afford to let it win again.
I work too hard to be thrown to the ground.
Struggling, helpless, I scream, no sound.
I often think of a town so mellow,
And in this dream I'm a happy fellow.
I do not want perfection,
Only grace, and fine protection.
For, perfection is a substance that can never be attained.

Poetry is kind of a big deal..

Here I stand,
At the mercy of a windstorm.
In the arms of bulletproof glass.
I am so protected,
but I can still fall apart.

Here I stand,
feet on the ground,
shoulder to the wall.
Relaxation is overrated,
destiny will call.

Here I stand,
In a hole dug six feet.
There is no telling, here,
Whom all I might meet.
Take me foward.

Here I stand,
In the light of all that once was.
In a galaxy of unknown.
Don't even ask.
You are not allowed to know.

Finals, Finals, Finals..

I had finals this morning...it took about 3 hours. It wasn't too hard though. It was for English Comp 1, in which I have an A. We just had to pick a topic and write an essay about it. It was fun..I have quite the imagination. I need to work on my Algebra 2 grade though :/ ACT's tomorrow morning. We'll see how that goes. Later for now ;)

Seems like it's been forever..

It's been so long since I last wrote in my blog. Not much has changed. I got my driver's license, and I've been through two vehicles so far. My first vehicle was a '92 Chevy. It was a good truck, it just sucked up all of my gas mileage. I had my first wreck :P I was talking on the phone with Hallay, and got a little distracted because unbeknownst to me, that was the day Montgomery flooded. I passed a car-lot that was completely submerged in water, did a double-take, said "What the?", and turned around just in time to see all the cars in front of me stopped. I'm not a half bad driver, so I took control of the vehicle and maneuvered it to the left, clipping their tail-light, and landing in a ditch full of mud. It didn't hurt my truck, but it smashed up their light. Now I drive a '95 Honda Civic, and I LOVE it. It's a 5-speed, and I absolutely LOVE manual transmissions. It's grey-ish blue in color. I'm no longer in a relationship with Hallay, that ended a while back. I'm currently in a relationship with the love of my life, Katie Glynn. She's by far the most amazing girl I've ever laid eyes on. Just when I had given up, love found me :) And I am thankful...Thankful for all of the things that I have in my life. My grandfather ended up catching the cancer in time, and has long since been cured from it. Thank you so much for your prayers. He is currently in Seattle, Washington working a job to support my Nana back home. He wasn't able to come down for Thanksgiving, but on the plus-side he is killing the MESS out of ducks up there. I am so jealous. Anyone that knows me, knows that I have been duck hunting since I was 5. I miss him though. Thanks, guys..

-Jake

In the blink of an eye...

My best bud, my pal, my Pawpaw. He is a man in his late 50's. He has given his life to God. He went to the doctors to have a bump removed on the back of his leg. Turns out, it was cancer. Merkel-cell Carcinoma. It's a fast spreading cancer. Once it hits the lymph nodes, it could be fatal. We think we caught it time. Please, God, let us have caught it in time. Pray.

Hello there, my old friend... :)

Yes...yes it has been a while. A lot of things have happened since the last time I wrote. Saturday was just a blasty-blast. I took Hallay to the Spring Formal <3 I had so much fun. I actually wish I could re-live that night over and over again <3 Sunday was a mess. Our drummer decided to quit the band the afternoon of the song we had to perform, just because we couldnt make the world revolve around him. Being the genius that I am though, I called BJ to come play for us. Our old drummer must've freaked out when he walked in and saw that drumset in there. He got a couple of spoonfulls of sheer humility that night, I can tell you that. We had the Grand Opening for my father's new office today. We had our family friends Tommy, David (Tommy's son), and Mama (Tommy's mother). He brought his hot-air balloon and put my fathers banner on it. Pretty good advertisement huh? I got to spend all day with Hallay :) Come to think of it, Sunday I turn 16. DRIVER'S TEST MONDAY! I can't wait. Maybe it means I can get out of the house more. Maybe it won't change a thing.... Maybe i'll become a taxi. It is pretty late. I got off earlier just to wake up and get back on again. But for real, i'm going to sleep now. I'll write tomorrow, I promise.




-Jake

White March...

Today I woke up to a WHITE, WHITE morning. I couldnt believe it was snowing in MARCH! My friends Dad was like, "Wake up guys. Church was canceled because of the snow.." At first I didnt believe him, but when I took a look out of the window, the Wintery Wonderland that resided in the outside realm begged to differ. :) It was awesome! When I opened the front door to go frolic in this 'white madness', Dale, the demon dog, bolted out of the door, hit the brakes, and slid all the way off of the deck. I laughed at this. Seth and I had a quick snowball fight, and then we went back in for a late breakfast. I had a WONDERFUL time at the Bible Study last night. I have an interview with CEF's very own Sean Miller. :D I know right! :P Later for now.

"Some say optimism is the total denial of reality.."- Jacob Brock :D

Today

Last night was a total disaster. Family disputes...gotta love 'em. I was near the verge of tears with all of the crap going on. Hallay called me right in the middle of all of it. <3 Last night at Alex's was fun. We didnt do much, but its cool that we got to hang out. This morning was great. I got picked up from Alex's at 8:30, and carted to my mother's house. I took a quick shower, and went to play a video game. Hallay called me and absolutely made my day. I miss you so much <3 I slept til about 11:30 and then went to my other house, packed up, and headed out of there back to M-gomery. We stopped at TacoBell. :) Yum.


P.S. The sour skittles taste great :D

Predestination VS. Freewill

Tonight at Cowboy Church, we had a pretty vocalized debate on Predestination and Freewill. Everyone was calm and civilized about it; I though fists would start flying any second. :) I will go more in-depth on this later.

Today went well. I did some schoolwork, vaccumed the house, cleaned kitchen, etc. I am going with my buddy Clint in a little while to the Cowboy Church. A rodeo announcer usually gives us the lesson. I'll post more when I get home.

"Two wrongs don't make a right, but two Wrights made an airplane."

Good so far...

Its about 10:20 in the A.M. and I feel fine :) I dont think I have a lot going on today. I know I have church tonight, and I know my dad is meeting the guy who is buying the old repo-truck who flew in last night. I finished typing out the final draft of my 'Testimony' thing for the CYIA application. WOOHOO! I sure am glad to have that off of my shoulders. The only thing I left blank was 'Preferred Roomate'. I think for Hallay's sake im going to ask for Samuel and Jwan both... :P

An old thought, that I though i'd share :)

This is something that was on my mind about 3 years ago. I wasn't really on the right path with God, but reality hit me, and i'm glad it did. It might be cheesy, but remember its coming from a 13 year old's mind. Comment after you read please:

I havent been on the right path with God lately. It was'nt till the other day, I realized his awesome power and love for us pitiful, disgraceful humans...And he loves us literally to death. This made me think (A small testimony from me):
The other day I was doing my push ups, and I was getting near the last ones. I had a cross necklace around my neck. Nothing special, just a cheap necklace made out of nails. It kept getting in my way you know, interfering with my routine. I kept pushing and putting it behind my back. I finally took it off.
Thats how I feel we treat God. We try to live fun lives, so we just keep pushing God behind us, because we feel he's trying to interfere. On our walk with him, we tend to be a couple steps behind. Thats what I was doing. But if you read these:


Forgiveness and victory over sin (Jer 31:31-34 Heb 10:14-17 Jhn 6:37 Rom 8:1 Jas 4:7-8)

Answers to prayer (1Jn 5:14 Acts 10:1-4)

Gift of the Holy Spirit (Acts 2:38-39 Jhn 4:14; 7:39)

Security of our souls (Jhn 10:27-29 Mtt 28:18-20)

Resurrection from death (Jhn 5:28-29)

Safety through the Judgment (Rom 14:10-12, 2Tm 4:2, 1Jn 3:21)

Eternal life in heaven (Jhn 3:16 Jhn 14:1-3)



You'll see that living life the way he wants us too, isnt so bad in the end.

Tour of Auburn...

I really liked it. It is probably where I will end up going. They have an AMAZING vet school there. A LOT of money was invested in it, especially the large-animal portion of it. We stopped and got chocolate milkshakes too :) Thats pretty much all I want to type for now. I might go in-depth on it later.

-I thought about you all day <3

This morning...

This morning has gone alright :) I had hot water to shower in because I woke up later than my parents, thank the LORD! Then I had a bowl of Corn Chex, and went to feed the horses with Holly. I am currently filling out my application to CYIA. I have to write a book about my life... :P I am going to tour Auburn University this afternoon. That'll be fun :) Still haven't decided if its the place for me yet, but we'll see. I am going to the Cowboy Church with Clint tomorrow. Im gonna hang with his friends again. I enjoyed it the last time I went, so it should be fun. Bye for now, i'll post again later today.

Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease,

Jacob

Today was a good day :)

I woke up this morning, and I took a shower and got on FaceBook for a while. I was ready before everyone, so I had to go feed the horses by myself. I dont mind though :) My dad was a little late though. For some reason he wasnt ready until about 7:50 when he knows we have to leave by at least 7:30. So yeah we got a late start. B.J. (friend) was freaking out because he had wanted to tell Jessica that it was FOR REAL over with today, but her dad ended up showing up. Today was the first time I have seen Hallay (girlfriend) without some sort of blue or brown on :P She looked wonderful in red :) But what can I say? She looks great in anything. Geometry class went alright. We had a test today, and my stepmother and little sister came to sit in class with us. Today's guitar lesson went good. I taugh my padawan Javan, Hallay's younger brother, the song "Lord, I Lift Your Name on High", a simple and easy tune :) I went to lunch with the Solomon's and friends today also. We went to Tenda-Chick. After all of that, we headed over to Old Navy to buy Javan some pants, and Hallay and I wandered aimlessly around Shoe-Station. When I got home, I helped with the fence, and then realized I had forgotten about Praise Band practice, so I hurried up and got my stuff ready, and my dad took me. I actually wrote a new song today. Its called "Im Letting Go." Its a song about a guy who cant take any more of life and wants to end his life right then and there, but then realizes a greater purpose and instead of letting go of LIFE he is letting go of all of the things dragging him down. Its pretty deep. I hitched a ride home with Seth Lumley (friend, guitarist), Bubba, and Lee. Dale (demon dog) was with them. :P I love that dog. Tomorrow I am touring Auburn University. When I told Hallay, she asked if I was leaving her. I said, "Nope, nope, nope. I dont even know if i'm going there, and don't worry, i'll never leave you. :)." Haha, girls can make you feel awful...but its totally worth it.